I know that we haven't been in touch lately. With me in school and working, it seems I don't have much time for you anymore. My life and time consumed with readings and research, living out of vending machines, deadlines, and walking home late after class in the cold. When I get home, I have a tendency to ignore you - and instead focus on the superficial. Dishes to be done, chapters to read, laundry to do. Maybe though, that is what you really consist of? Not the life I used to know. I've tried to come to terms and face that you've changed, but I can't admit to myself that I have too. All these distractions are a soft welcome to facing you, and those things I've ignored for so long seem so convenient to push aside once a new chapter is assigned. It's just so nice to have something to distract me from you, instead of actually living you. Alas, it's caught up to me and I've realized I have to live you, take my head from out of this book and find that balance that I so need.
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